These past couple of years I have learned quite a bit, mostly about myself. It’s been one heck of a journey. I have had many jobs throughout my life, stayed too busy to ever really get to know myself. I identified with the job I was doing at the time, like most of us do. I did some painting (interior and exterior) as well as restoration work, some carpentry, machine shop, pizza dough maker and delivery driver, bookkeeper, store manager, courtesy clerk, cashier, food truck (server and dishwasher), caregiver (then later a social support director in a care facility), restaurant waitress, cocktail waitress, bartender, bar manager, cook, and probably a few other gigs I can’t remember. The thing is, I’ve always adapted and learned new things. It wasn’t always easy at first, but usually once I got it, I was good. I stuck with serving and bartending for the majority of my employed time because I enjoyed it, and I liked making people happy. Creating cocktails and naming them was also fun for me, I liked seeing people enjoying my creations. I’m feeling that kind of “alchemist” joy now when I’m creating these wands, a little this and a little that and the energy has a flavor of it’s own, then I get to name it too. I didn’t choose to make art when I decided that I wasn’t a bartender anymore. I ultimately just learned to trust myself, and allowed myself to slow down a minute so I could hear my soul telling me how to find my joy. It got real loud, so I’ve been listening. Now putting it all out there in the world is a whole different learning experience for me. Building a website and figuring out how all this technical stuff works, gets a little frustrating at times. I’m getting there, I’m learning, and I’m very grateful for the age of available information at our fingertips. I also learned that when I start to get frustrated with the roadblocks, that are inevitable, that it’s then time to take a break from that task and go accomplish something else. Even if it’s cleaning up dog poop, I’ll do whatever brings me more peace of mind so I don’t lose it (my mind that is). Oh, and I also celebrate after figuring something out that I was stumped on, yes indeed a happy dance and a cookie! Learning new things and changing my life around is something that I should be a pro at by now, but it’s always a different experience with different circumstances to maneuver and navigate through.
So, now I’m thinking I might start a youtube channel. I actually noticed today that I have one already somehow. It’s just a blank canvas waiting for me to take on another challenge in this great learning experience called life.
